Ok, ALL my goodfornothingdamn friends are going out of town this weekend........and ME? I have to stay here cuz school starts on Tues. YES I AM STILL IN SCHOOL !!! (arrrgggh). I guess there are several reasons for this..... i started school a little late as a kid, i fucked around alot working odd jobs after i graduated HS......and finally I go to a 5 year Architecture school. Five fuckin years, sigh........and that's only if your are on crack and freakin insane. The average person graduates from my school uhmmm i say around 5 and a half, 6 years? It's called Southern California Institute of Architecture, Sci-Arc Most people in this world have never heard of it unless your REALLY into Architecture (which most ppl aren't) It's a good school, ranked top 10 in the country (even though i think its # 9 or 10 right now....) It's very avant garde, cutting edge, even experimental Arch. So it def. keeps one on its toes. I love Sci-Arc, but I do sometimes have doubts about my choose of schools though. You see its a relationship wrecker, and although i have no doubt where and what my future holds in terms of my goal as an Architect, i think my social life will forever have to take a back seat to my career.(SUCKS) I'll give you an example what my week is like on a regualr basis........ I get about maybe 24 hours of sleep MAX in a 7 day week. Most of that comes from sleeping all night on friday and sunday. I pull maybe 2 all nighters a week, i sleep when others wake and i drink so much coffee sometimes i'm turning browner every year. And did i tell you my Sci-Arc cost almost 20k a year? Which means i'll prob. owe the gov. almost 100k by the time i get out of school. YAHOOO......

But its a PASSION, so what can i do. So i learn that i have to be alittle anal, i have to have a thick skin, i have to be cocky and have faith in my own work, i have to put myself out there , be criticized and then fight for what i've created.....

But is there anythng better in life? The ability to CREATE......its an vastly undervalued asset in this world. You see, I don't destory to make a living, i don't profit from the work of others, i don't make a living from other ppl's suffering, What i do is unique and comes from ME.......... so if you were to ask me how i like or how it is being an architect ? just one thing............ it's a PASSION

So i've gotten alot of "interesting" and "semi/psuedo-fattering" notes and emails since i've gotten on AA. Some letting me know that they enjoy the writing....some dropping by to share a few laughs, and some just basicly telling me that i'm a no-good ignorant ASS (heh, i like those...) But it got me thinking .......

I AM VERY MISUNDERSTOOD. People for some damn reason get the wrong impression of me a great deal....and i know you're NOT suppose to care what other ppl think. But come on !! Let's all admit it now......we're all fragile little beasts ,whether you want to admit it or not. I mean put the macho EGO aside........to quote Jesus, " Let thee who hath NO feelings cast the first stone...." Ok maybe he didn't say that but you know what i mean.

So who am i you might ask?? ....... I'm not a very "simple" person per say(although i'm trying damn hard to be...) I def. have my quirkes. I'm a bit of a loner, got a few issues, plus i'm abit anal(NOT SEXUAL) when it comes to certain things. I'm a big-time dreamer and I live by cerrtain rules ppl would find silly (for ex....IF ITS NOT AESTHETICILY PLEASING, DON'T BOTHER)or (sleeping before midnight is a MORTAL SIN) Some would say your childhood makes you what you are today, and i guess in some ways that applies. But i still say you are who you want to be.......and the past is the past, better to leave it there. So i guess i blame it on my PASSIONS.........

AHHHH the passions in life. If you think about it it makes sense doesn't it? Afterall passions are what drives us, extrudes emotion, ampifies feelings.......Yes, the ultimate catalyst. Once in a while it makes ppl do funny things, but out passions also forces us to seek out most terrific experience in this world.....LOVE. So i guess what i'm trying to say is...YOUR PASSIONS SHAPE AND DRIVE WHO YOU ARE. It could be as simple as money, cars, the opposite sex or as sophisticated as personal philosophy, DOGMAS and the opposite sex (again). If they're modest and straightforward, then the person might reflect as such. But if they are loaded and complex....well you might have some issues, but you as a person will sure as hell be interesting no ??

" To implant, or not to implant....that is the question
Whether tis` nobler in the chest to suffer
The drools and gawks of outrageous cleavage
Or to take arms against a Plateau of shame......"

W. Shakespeare(if he had lived in the 21st century)


You know me and my friends have this same arguement all the time and it`s this........Are girls(particularly Asian) better off getting a boob job or NOT? I mean i know we`re not solving world hunger here but hey.... one thing at a time ok?! For us guys, shoot we think about booties all the time, no denying that....it`s a everyday thing : Wake-up(breasts), brush teeth(breasts), drive to work(look for breasts) And girls...don`t lie now, all of you have at one time of another stood in front of that mirror, "Cringed" and thought about getting yours done ASAP. But hey, whether you like "soft-serves" or "snow cones" the debate will continue...........

So let`s take a logical looks at this shall we?

THE FEEL...
REAL = like heaven baby, heaven
FAKE = like a bad grapefruit....i mean come on, who the hell likes grapefruits ?!
ADV - REAL

The LOOK...
REAL = like a big blackhead
FAKE = like heaven baby, heaven
ADV - FAKE

The COST
REAL = What cost?! u don`t even need a bra!
FAKE = $$ CHA-CHING!! $$
ADV - REAL

2ND FUNCTION
REAL = milk
FAKE = floatation device w/ milk
ADV - FAKE

BIGGEST +
REAL = Men respect you
FAKE = Men will give you their ATM pin
ADV - FAKE

BIGGEST -
REAL = BF leaves you for "Bigger"
FAKE = BF doesn`t know what "leave"means
ADV - REAL



So what have we learned here kids....??? Is it worth the pain and money to gain attention and self-confidence? Or are you satisfied enough in your own little world to know that you might be playing at a disavantage? Opinion may vary, but i think...

ALL THINGS CONSIDERED, EVERTHING EVENS OUT FOLKS....